The pain and bleeding haven't subsided. It has now been 12 days. I have not left my couch except to go to the doctors, which is not helping with the depression i feel lately. i miss living life. it is the holiday season and i have to keep declining invites because i cant walk and i'm in so much physical pain. not to mention i am just feeling so down i dont have any holiday spirit right now.
i'm trying, but it's real, real hard.

I see my regular doctor tomorrow. I hope it goes well I want this to be over with.